But when it pleased God, who separated me from my mother’s womb, and called me by his grace, To reveal his Son in me, that I might preach him among the heathen; immediately I conferred not with flesh and blood: Galatians 1:16-15
I have always pursued some sort of an inner harmony. Most of my life I have spent studying and researching men of honor; studying what they have done or accomplished in order to be remembered as virtuous men. I wanted to know the reason I live, what is my purpose, where am I going in this life. Since I was a child, I had a feeling that I am on this earth for a reason. As far as I can remember, I had a good childhood; I had six siblings, many aunts and uncles, grand-parents and family friends. Consequently, my childhood was full of joy, happiness, I was filled with ease, as if I was flying on feathers. Maybe, because, I was a first child, all of my relatives filled me with care, love and spoiled me. Albeit, around the time of my teenage years, I began to feel a hole in my heart. I started to look for a way to fill this gap in my chest. I looked for a means to have this joy, by looking for different ways to have entertainment. I began to associate with those who had alcohol, went to hangout spots which were filled with easy fun.
Likewise, from an early age, as long as I can remember I was fascinated with joining the military. I enjoyed stories, movies, tales and history identifiable with military service, heroism, respect for the military class and virtue of honorable heroes. As soon as it was possible to join in the military service, I joined the Airborne Infantry. While in the military I traveled Europe and most of the night was spent in nightlife entertainment spots throughout popular European clubs. I was known as a popular guy amongst weird associates, always on the move, others came to me for entertainment.
Furthermore, while in the service, a little time went by and a senior leader noticed my potential and started to mentor me. All the phrases appealing to a young man who romanticized the war were used; Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless service, Integrity, Personal Courage, and Best Man standing is the last standing and so forth. He started to give me availability to schools and opportunities to volunteer to go to best available schools and missions to progress in my career as well as to become the best of the best. The more opportunities I had to attend the best training the better I became at leadership, tactics, strategy and close quarter combat to include what on the streets is called martial arts.
At first, my head was spinning with busyness and false joy. But as time went on, I started to realize; is this really what I want? Is this truly what I am made for, to walk on this earth and be enveloped by entertainment? Am I really happy, or am I spending all my health, time and resources, to fill a gap in my heart; which is leading me in to a path that has not been pioneered before, I was entering a path that lead in to the abyss of darkness. I’ve came to realize, that entertainment is a false hope of joy, that cannot be substituted. Moreover, all the “friends” really cared less about me, or my mindset… most cared less about their future, or anything else beyond tomorrow.
Subsequently, I started to study and research the spiritual realm… I bounced between religious beliefs- more of the Christian denominations; most likely because I grew up in a religious establishment. I knew that Jesus was the answer, but at the same time I could not understand why the Bible states one thing, but the lives of those who preach it are on display of the contrary. They were one of the reasons I walked away from the “church”. So I studied Church History, religious History, Christianity, I went to College for a History degree. I was so enthusiastic about the traditions of my ancestors, the knowledge of the modern way of religion and teachings through man found histories; the work related lessons learned, the art of my profession that I advanced head and shoulders above my peers in my career. Even then God had designs on me. The verse from Galatians 1:15-16 rings a perfect sound in the Bell tower… Why, when I was still in my mother’s womb he chose and called me out of sheer generosity! Now he has intervened and revealed his Son to me so that I might joyfully tell all creation about him. You see, God himself stepped in to my life; He healed me from the wounds I caused to myself; he stepped in to my hell, the one I created for myself and with His mighty hand liberated me. But it was because I came to a point in my life, when I had no other way to go but to scream “Help Me God”. And now that I have seen His mighty hand, now that I have heard His voice; it is impossible for my faith to be shaken, impossible to backslide. But I have to go forth and proclaim his freedom to all. Physically and verbally proclaim Him, His Kingdom and His freedom.
The Bible reassures us, “No one who trusts in God like this—heart and soul—will ever regret it.” And the exact would be the same; no matter what the person’s religious background may be: the same God Yahweh, is for all of us, acting in the same incredibly generous way to everyone who calls out for help. “Everyone who calls, ‘Help, God!’ gets help.”(For, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. Joel 2:32; Romans 10:13). But how can people call for help if they don’t know who to trust? And how can they know who to trust if they haven’t heard of the One who can be trusted? And how can they hear if nobody tells them? And how is anyone going to tell them, unless someone is sent to do it? That’s why
How beautiful on the mountains
are the feet of those who bring good news,
who proclaim peace,
who bring good tidings,
who proclaim salvation,
who say to Zion,
“Your God reigns!” Isaiah 52:7
But not everybody is ready for this, ready to see and hear and act. Isaiah asked what we all ask at one time or another: “Does anyone care, God? Is anyone listening and believing a word of it?” The point is: Before you trust, you have to listen. But unless Christ’s Word is preached, there’s nothing to listen to.
Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover. Mark 16:15-18